I'm okay now.

The most unsatisfying irritating and useless form of artwork is photoshop.
FUCK WORKING ON PHOTOSHOP
and fuck having it be a required class for this stupid fucking bullshit.

Fuck you FIT
thanks a lot!

I am a failure.
sober.
broken ankle
mother's wrath
I am the worst fuck up ever.
crying inability

I want a cigarette.
there is a deep depression welling up inside me.
I know that sounds angsty
but its been aching in my chest as of late.

3:00am
Painting
smoking cigarettes in the bathroom.
listening to Antony and The Johnsons.
I am a little high.

comfort.

I wrote so much last post I didn't realize.
Anyway, its 4:30am I'm watching jackass with my really good friend Elijah, and I really want a cigarette.

I put up some more work its nothing compared to the amount I actually have to get up on here eventually. I just cant stand the DevArt posting process and I'm really tired. So maybe tomorrow!

Oh well, I'm going to go smoke, I suggest whoever reads this go read allen ginsberg, smoke a cigarette, watch pink flamingos, and paint something today. At least thats what I'm going to do.


ciao for now.